God has a way of drawing us closer. He S.P.E.A.K.S.
God spoke these words and they touched the inner-most depths of my spirit. Let it be an encouragement for you.
"This life means so much more than what you think. You have plans and desires, but let me open your heart and mind to see the things the way I see them. Let me show you what I've seen. Let me show you where and how I've seen your future. Open your heart to my word. Open your mind to a higher reality, a realm that is accessible only through your spirit. A place where faith becomes reality and my dreams come true. Come and look! Take my eyes and see yourself as I do because once you see what I see nothing will be the same. You won't see your life in the same way, you won't see your family as you do now. Once you see my kingdom, you will do anything to bring it to Earth."
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
In Complete Surrender
I am a planner. I like to know what's going to happen and when it's going to happen. I don't like the unknown. I don't like the unexpected.
My mind has been a battlefield. My thoughts have been racing a hundred miles a minute. It's like I can't control them. I think about the future. I think about tomorrow. All of these things are causing me to worry. I am the middle of a war that can't be won.
Here's a little heads up about what's been going on in my life...
I'm in Guatemala. I have people that support me with the hope that I am going out there and changing lives.
And here's the reality of what my life is right now...
I look around and I don't see an impact anywhere. What have I done? What am I doing? Why am I here? My heart's desire is to go and tell people this amazing love story about how God loves them so much that He already paid the price to rescue them from all death and destruction. I'm not saying my time here has been a lost cause. I'm saying that I want more. I want to see more lives changed. I want to go into the city full force. I want to get my hands involved. THAT is the sole reason I moved out of my country, my comfort zone and the only place I've ever known. I didn't make such a sacrifice to come and fill up my time with jobs that I take just because they're there. Then, there's the question...well what do I do? People tell me to go out and find what's out there. But truth is, I don't even know where to look.
Tonight as I'm alone I look back. I look foward. I think about all these things. My mind is overwhelmed with thoughts of grief and doubt and worry. Then, out of the nothing comes this voice so soft and so still. It says, "Come to me." I start seeking God with all that I am. I pour out my heart and surrender all those thoughts. God has a plan. That's something I know to be certain. Then once again I look back. But this time God showed me something. I look back and see my life and everything that I've been through. He shows me how He's been there every hour of everyday. And He reminds me that He's not going to abandon me now.
It's hard for me to get past the unknown. It's hard for me to trust when I don't know what's going to happen. But what can worry do? Nothing. What can God do? Everything. It's as if I'm jumping off a cliff into the future. It's dark and I can't see anything. But there's God with me, beside me, holding my hand. Suddenly, I'm not alone. And I'm no longer doubtful or afraid.
Truth be told...I have no idea what's coming. I don't know what will happen tomorrow. But I give God control of everything. Absolutely everything. Why should I take or even want control when I have access to God's perfect plan? So here I am. God take my life. It's Yours. Fully and completely Yours. Use my hands, use my feet. I'm here. Let YOUR will be done.
My mind has been a battlefield. My thoughts have been racing a hundred miles a minute. It's like I can't control them. I think about the future. I think about tomorrow. All of these things are causing me to worry. I am the middle of a war that can't be won.
Here's a little heads up about what's been going on in my life...
I'm in Guatemala. I have people that support me with the hope that I am going out there and changing lives.
And here's the reality of what my life is right now...
I look around and I don't see an impact anywhere. What have I done? What am I doing? Why am I here? My heart's desire is to go and tell people this amazing love story about how God loves them so much that He already paid the price to rescue them from all death and destruction. I'm not saying my time here has been a lost cause. I'm saying that I want more. I want to see more lives changed. I want to go into the city full force. I want to get my hands involved. THAT is the sole reason I moved out of my country, my comfort zone and the only place I've ever known. I didn't make such a sacrifice to come and fill up my time with jobs that I take just because they're there. Then, there's the question...well what do I do? People tell me to go out and find what's out there. But truth is, I don't even know where to look.
Tonight as I'm alone I look back. I look foward. I think about all these things. My mind is overwhelmed with thoughts of grief and doubt and worry. Then, out of the nothing comes this voice so soft and so still. It says, "Come to me." I start seeking God with all that I am. I pour out my heart and surrender all those thoughts. God has a plan. That's something I know to be certain. Then once again I look back. But this time God showed me something. I look back and see my life and everything that I've been through. He shows me how He's been there every hour of everyday. And He reminds me that He's not going to abandon me now.
It's hard for me to get past the unknown. It's hard for me to trust when I don't know what's going to happen. But what can worry do? Nothing. What can God do? Everything. It's as if I'm jumping off a cliff into the future. It's dark and I can't see anything. But there's God with me, beside me, holding my hand. Suddenly, I'm not alone. And I'm no longer doubtful or afraid.
Truth be told...I have no idea what's coming. I don't know what will happen tomorrow. But I give God control of everything. Absolutely everything. Why should I take or even want control when I have access to God's perfect plan? So here I am. God take my life. It's Yours. Fully and completely Yours. Use my hands, use my feet. I'm here. Let YOUR will be done.
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